The Overwhelming Detriment of Negative Self-Talk

And The Importance of Turning it Around

This one deals heavily with the topic of suicidality, contains coarse language, and some descriptions of disturbing scenes.

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There’s plenty New Age-y self-help material out there from the likes of Eckhart Tolle, Dolores Cannon, Deepak Chopra, and a proverbial boatload of YouTubers (not entirely unlike yours truly), but this won’t quite be that.

For many years, I was deeply depressed to the point of wanting to take my own life. I’ve self-admitted to mental hospitals multiple times, met with therapists, psychiatrists, and spiritual counselors, and tried most of the big name pharmaceutical drugs aimed at taming the beast of depression.

While I don’t have direct memory of it, my mom told me that the first time it became apparent I needed psychological intervention, I approached her at five years old asking for a rope with which to hang myself. I don’t know how I knew about such things at that age, or why I thought she would acquiesce to such a request from her firstborn, but that’s the story I’ve been told… many times.